My Gastrointestinal Appointment

My Gastrointestinal Appointment

During my gastrointestinal appointment I was given some news about what they’re going to test me for. Which didn’t really leave me feeling at ease.


The Appointment


After spilling my guts about my problems with a student doctor, we went to the consultant. The gastrointestinal consultant said that I had a really bad case of irritable bowel syndrome (IBS). However, they also said they were still going to need to run two tests on me, gastroscopy and colonoscopy. Great.


What makes this worse, is that they want to do them both at the same time. I’m hoping not literally at the same time, otherwise, the devices they’re shoving down my throat and up my bum might meet in the middle. How weird would that be? Ha ha ha.


One of the things they want to test me for is a wheat allergy, but that doesn’t really add up with my eating habits.


They also want to see if I have Crohn’s disease. Which has me worried that I might end up with a stoma because that would make my anxiety disorder far more troublesome. I don’t think I could handle that. People that have them and are brave enough to talk about it and show people have a kind of strength I just don’t think I have.




I was also being tested for hypoglycemia and Addison’s disease (see my previous post My Short Synacthen Test (SST). That consultant said it appears I have reactive hypoglycemia. Another thing to add to my list of health problems.


Could It Be Cancer?


The gastrointestinal consultant also told me that the reason why they want to do these two tests is that they want to rule out some other possible problems. Apparently there’s a 1 in 200 chance that I could have bowel cancer, so they’ll be looking for signs of that. I’ve often been worried about having cancer (My GP Surgery Test Results), and I often have blood on my toilet paper, but I think that’s due to excessive wiping.


I tend to wipe a lot because I’ll go days without needing to go, and then got like 6 times in a day. My anxiety about this means I over wipe to try and make myself as clean as possible each time. As I said in my post, The Weirdness Of My Anxiety Disorders, my anxiety disorders have formed around the idea that I may lose bladder and bowel control (even though it’s never happened), with one of my triggers being bad smells. Thus, I over wipe to help manage this fear.




The fact that I have to take laxatives in order to do the colonoscopy, along with a diet restriction and fasting, really isn’t good for my anxiety disorders. Being flushed out like that is going to vamp up my anxiety to annoying high levels. Which will be made worse by all the symptoms of my physical health problems: dizziness; balance problems; lightheadedness; mini blackouts; muscle weakness; warped eyesight; tiredness; and my digestive problems.


Because of the procedures I’m going to have to go through as part of my gastrointestinal investigation, and the drugs they will give me, I’m also concerned that I might have a repeat of what happened when I had my tonsillectomy (Doctor Mocks Patient: Article). When I had my tonsillectomy I had a terrible experience with my anxiety when the drugs started wearing off. It triggers a psychotic episode, something I don’t want to have to go through again.


Plus my fear of being in a very vulnerable and embarrassing state will also make my anxiety much harder to manage.




Because of all this, and what will and might happen, I’m already panicking about the tests.


I wish I never went to the GP now (My GP Surgery Test Results), but the sample I gave then, the gastrointestinal consultant said, did show signs of inflammation. So something is wrong with my digestive system.


The Stupid Things I Did To My Self


After the appointment, I realised I forget to tell them a few things that could help explain my gastrointestinal problems. Back in around 2003, I took an overdose of aspirin and other painkillers washing it all down with a bottle of vodka. I did this because I was trying to kill myself, so I didn’t expect to wake up.


When I did wake up, I was sick, a lot. I spent around 16 hours being sick until there was nothing left and then dry heaving, every 30 seconds or so, for 16 hours. I was mainly dry heaving after the first half hour.


My kidneys was in agony for 3 days after that. During those 3 days, I went out drinking with my friends trying to pretend like nothing was wrong. I was in excruciating pain the whole time, pain I’d never felt like this before or since. But I powered through it. On the third day, I was taken to the hospital by the police to get treatment. 




That wasn’t the only reckless thing I’ve done that could have messed up my digestive system either. A few years before that I drink a shot of paint thinner, which spaced me out really badly. That was then replaced with agonising stomach pains, which was so bad that I took a fist full of valium so I could pass out and not have to deal with it. I awoke feeling much better but had to use the toilet quite badly.


I also forgot to inform them just how heavy I drank when I was in my suicidally reckless phase. This could have also been relevant because I would pre-drink a litre of vodka before going out drinking and clubbing. I did that a lot. Over a weekend, me and a couple of mates went through 18 bottles of vodka.


Any of these things could be a factor in my gastrointestinal problems.


Learn from my recklessness and mistakes and don’t end up like me. I’ve wreaked havoc on my body. I’ve totally fucked it up.


If you’re interested in finding out more about any of my other tests, you can find them, here, here, here, here, here, here. here, and here.




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4 thoughts on “My Gastrointestinal Appointment

  1. I really feel for you but I understand a little bit more than I’d like to admit. When you feel that pain and its bad, death seems like the best way out because at least you won’t have to feel that way anymore. I would rather someone hit me than be in emotional despair. I wish you all the best x

  2. I’ve been there. Both the endoscopy and colonoscopy. Thankfully not the same day. My IBS… Caused byby celiac disease.
    It’s not just the bread and pasta. It’s what they use wheat starch to make… Dressings, sauces, flavoured salts… Everything.
    I hope it’s not celiac, unless you’re happy to go 100% home cooked meals with little processed foods.
    It’s not all bad.
    Gut health and anxiety go hand in hand. As I heal my gut, my anxiety lessens.

    • Having both the tests together actually wasn’t that bad, the prep for the colonoscopy was terrible though.

      I don’t think I have celiac, they didn’t tell me after the tests anyway. But I’m waiting on biopsy results, so maybe they need that before they’d know?

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