While I was at my partner’s for dinner at the weekend, they asked me if I wanted to meet the following weekend. From the moment my partner asked, I started to fill with dread. I have a really hard time meeting up with people, especially given that my partner and I have an agreed upon schedule for meeting up.
We normally meet up for the weekend once every fortnight because they have a lot of work and I prefer to be completely on my own (even though I’m on my own almost all the time).
My anxiety disorders are a huge source of stress for me, so being on my own all the time means I don’t have to deal with my anxiety disorders if I stay at home. Safe space, safe me, for the most part at least (I have one incredibly annoying housemate).
So, I just replied with a bunch of different ways to say maybe, because saying no would clearly upset them, and because once I met up with them I pretty much always have a good time.
For now, I’m stuck with having to keep deflecting what I’ll do for an entire week, rather than just the usual flawed strategy of hoping they’ll forget it’s our weekend to meet up. This process wouldn’t normally start until it’s a couple of days before we’re meant to meet (as I’ve already stated in my previous post “The Difficulties of Meeting My Partner”).
It’s hugely annoying that my isolation process has kicked off far earlier than usual because it’s such a pain to deal with. I really wish I knew how to overcome this problem.
I’m lucky my partner is so understanding, my aversion to meeting up with a lover would most likely destroy most romantic relationships.
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